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Gone by Switchfoot

So I have a song running in my head over and over since this morning and it’s playing nonstop. The lyrics in “Gone” seem so applicable to me right now. I guess just the chorus has been running through my head actually:

She told him she’d rather fix her makeup
Than try to fix what’s going on
But the problem keeps on calling
Even with the cellphone gone
She told him that she believes in living
Bigger than she’s living now
But her world keeps spinning backwards
And upsidedown
Don’t say so long, and throw yourself wrong
Don’t spend today away
Cuz today will soon be

Gone, like yesterday is gone,
Like history is
Gone, just trying to prove me wrong
And pretend like you’re immortal

She said he said live like no tomorrow
Every day we borrow
Brings us one step closer to the edge (infinity)
Where’s your treasure, where’s your hope
If you get the world and lose your soul
She pretends like she pretends like she’s immortal
Don’t say so long
You’re not that far gone
This could be your big chance to makeup
Today will soon be

Gone, like yeterday is gone,
Like history is gone,
The world keeps spinning on,
Your going going gone,
Like summer break is gone,
Like saturday is gone
Just try to prove me wrong
You pretend like your immortal your immortal

We are not infinite
We are not permanent
Nothing is immediate
We’re so confident
In our accomplishments
Look at our decadence

Gone, like Frank Sinatra
Like Elvis and his mom
Like AL Pacino’s cash nothing lasts in this life
My highschool dreams are gone
My childhood sweets are gone
Life is a day that doesn’t last for long

Life is more than money
Time was never money
Time was never cash,
Life is still more than girls
Life is more than hundred dollar bills
And roto-tom fills
Life’s more than fame and rock and roll and thrills
All the riches of the kings
End up in wills we got information in the information age
But do we know what life is
Outside of our convenient Lexus cages

She said he said live like no tomorrow
Every moment that we borrow
Brings us closer to the God who’s not short of cash
Hey Bono i’m glad you asked
Life is still worth living, life is still worth living

After reading the news and praying for Japan and the surrounding areas, it made me really think of the things I considered precious. my car…my camera…my phone? the new ipad 2 coming out? they really don’t compare. life is too precious and soon all these things will be gone.

i called my dad today. it’s his birthday. we talked about life and about the earthquake in japan. really…live life to the fullest, people! it really is so precious.


What a wonderful DREAM!

Today after church, I came home to take my usual nap before I start crunching for my exams. Dreams are a rare occasion for me. Sometimes I have dreams that are just so random that it makes me think that it must be from God. Before I get into my dream, I just want to explain how my week was. It was basically a SLUMP. I felt so inadequate, insignificant, aimless, etc.. you get the point. Feeling slumpish, I went to church on sunday and what a great message i got to hear. 2 in fact! I serve in e-high so I attended yg service in the morning and we had a special guest, which was our NEXT friday singles ministry pastor. I was so blessed by his message. His message was about Elijah and the famous story of prophets of Baal being defeated.. but it doesn’t end there. 1 Kings 19 displays a story of the great prophet, Elijah fleeing because he is afraid that he will be killed. However, God sends an angel to feed him twice to remind him of what God has done for him before (if you read in previous chapters).. However, the verses that just HIT HOME for me was when the Lord speaks to Eiljah.

“And he said, ‘Go out and stand on the mount before the Lord.’ And behold, the Lord passed by, and a great and strong wind tore the mountains and broke in pieces the rocks before the Lord, but the Lord was not in the wind. And after the wind an earthquake, but the Lord was not in the earthquake. And after the earthquake a fire, but the Lord was not in the fire. And after the fire the sound of a low whisper. And when Elijah heard it, he wrapped his face in his cloak and went out and stood at the entrance of the cave. And behold, there came a voice and said, ‘What are you doing here, Elijah?” 1 Kings 19:11-13

It dawned upon me that I was trying to hear God, expecting He will show up in GREAT and SIGNIFICANT ways and i don’t doubt that. But this verse felt so intimate because He came in a low, gentle whisper. And Elijah knew, God was there. How amazing is this? Anyway, so after an AMAZING sermon by pastor Jeff, I went to my usual Holy Wave service, which is the EM service. I thought about skipping it since i have 3 exams coming up and I’m pretty stressed out about it. But i thought, you know what? I can sacrifice 1-2 hours for God. So I went and dang, double whammy!!! Another great sermon. God seriously spoke RIGHT to me. It was about the great deception of Satan on evangelism. The 1st deception Pastor Howard shared was that Satan wants you to question your self-worth. What I’ve been feeling ALL WEEK. Satan you deceitful liar, i thought to myself. The sermon continued on but I was just so blessed. I was so joyful. Then on the way back to my car, I was in the shuttle just reflecting back upon the messages i heard today. Then I noticed a lady frantically come inside the shuttle bus and sit right next to me. She looked disturbed and i didn’t want to be nosy but I overhead what she was saying. Basically the story is that her husband and the lady was so busy getting to church that they “accidentally” forgot to bring their youngest child out of the car. The husband thought the wife brought the child out and the wife thought the husband brought the child out. The child is 3 so the mother explained that the child is able to come out of the car but the child could be anywhere. By the way, my church is HUGE so it’s very possible to lose a child. Anyway, she was frantically calling her husband and I could tell she was just so worried. The lady next to her tried to help her and I noticed that she was starting to cry. She tried to minimize the effect by wiping away her tears fast but my heart went out to her. I prayed a silent prayer in my head for her child. But as I thought about this situation, i thought this is how God must feel, not that He would ever lose us due to mistakes, but when one of His children are lost, He probably weeps and grieves for them. Then the mother received a call and it was from her husband and he let her know that the child is safe in the car and wasn’t even crying. She explains the situation to the lady next to her and thanks her for the concern. As soon as the shuttle bus stops, she hurries out and started to run towards her car. I actually wanted to follow her to see the whole situation but I got too lazy. But as i saw her running in her heels in the rain.. I thought dang.. God must be so happy when His child returns back to Him. Just like the story of the prodigal son. When seeing it in reality.. it was simply amazing. Anyway, so now back to where I started off. my dream..

Maybe it’s because i’ve been reading Chronicles of Narnia lately, but I was one of the princess of Narnia and I was walking with the other princes and princesses what seemed like a middle of a war. It was the story of the second book, where it was known that Aslan had died by the hands of the Witch. We came to a stop and we were hiding because we could see the Witch of Narnia and the other enemies in a distance. We came before them and somehow they pushed me off a cliff. However, I managed to hold on to the edge of the cliff and the Witch came close to me and stared right at me. And she asks, “What is it that you said about Aslan?” And with what courage, I don’t KNOW, because her stare was so cold and mean looking. But I stared right back into her black eyes and I said to her boldly, “Aslan is alive and stronger than ever. He is stronger than even you. He is on his way and he is going to defeat you. He is stronger than YOU.” Then the Witch got closer to me and was about to push me off the cliff and I woke up. Probably cuz i had to go the bathroom so badly but I was just SO happy and excited that even in my dream that i had the courage to speak like that. Mann.. seriously I felt like I was exclaiming to Satan that MY GOD is stronger that He is with me and He will defeat over you. :) I felt encouraged. Just thought I’d share. 

And if Our God is for us, then who could ever stop us
And if our God is with us, then what can stand against?
And if Our God is for us, then who could ever stop us
And if our God is with us, then what can stand against?
What can stand against?

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On the way to socal. Right after the mountain pass near valencia. This huuuuuge cloud was like a giant wall in the sky. Completely blocked the sun. Amazing

Sad day today. Messed up two sections of my car today. Backed up into a rose bush = scuffed and scratched rear fender. Secondly, front bumper caught onto those stupid concrete blocks while parking = bumper that is no longer flush aka some tabs on the bumper snapped off. Still I guess I should be happy? It was a productive day. Got a lot of studying done haha

End of Fall Quarter

Really? Is this quarter really over? I’m currently sitting in the last class session for my “Church and Mission in a Global Context” class haha. such a long name. anyway, i can’t believe that this quarter is already over. all i can think about is: how many hours/days did i procrastinate? haha. even now. i’m not paying attention in class. :(

anyway. i have much to be thankful for. even in the past few months, God has shown me His faithfulness and love. Got to go to Korea again. Got in to grad school. Got a new(er) car yesterday. helped me meet new people and make friends here in Fuller. Got plugged in to a good church community. I get to see my good friends from Davis at least once every few weeks (but most of them i see every week). PTL for sure. Thanks JEEJUS

I’m finally getting a new car. Well for me at least. In the end, I gave in to my parents’ request for a civic. At least it’s an si. And even though it’s a 2007, supposedly it has all the power options. And the body color is exclusive to an si. I guess I should be happy. Just hate that everyone and their moms have a civic. I told myself that I would never get one. It’s funny how God works in interesting ways. Like when I said that I would never go to UC Davis for undergrad. Or how I wouldn’t want to go to grad school. Or how I would never ever ever EVER get a civic. haha. God, Your sense of humor never fails to amuse me.

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